Dear Mommy,
Life is pretty great right now. I love the work that I am doing. I am sharing my favorite passion with so many people in this world. I get to work in a place where I am constantly learning, being challenged in new ways, and challenging myself to continue to grow, learn, be more creative, take risks, and put myself out there on a daily basis. I get to spend time with one of my favorite role models in this world. And then, I get to spoil and mush with her children, my favorite niece and nephew (for now)! The sun is shining most days, it's warm, and I live by the beach, and I get to work out every day and eat the best food. ever.
But there are plenty of things I'm missing out on and giving up by being here. I miss getting to spend time with my other favorite role model (and hopefully soon, her fiancé). Then there's my Dad, who, despite all the challenges, obstacles, and life, he never ceases to love me, be there for me, and amaze me in every single way. And then of course, are all of the friendships I've developed over the last 30 years in countless cities across the States. Those took years to nurture and develop, and starting over isn't as easy or fun as one would think.
My last year in Denver, with the prompting of many people, specifically, the one and only Melanie, I spent months working on my mental and emotional health. I went to see my therapist on a weekly basis for 8 months. She opened my eyes, my heart, and my soul to things I never imagined. She allowed me the opportunity to continue my healing process, but more importantly to face head on the challenges that I had bottled up inside and ignored.
Fitness has been my saving grace my entire life. From as long as I can remember, the basketball court is where nothing could get to me. I left it all out on the court. Every struggle, every fear, every lacking in confidence, to every exciting milestone, good grade, life change, sports is where my mind was at ease the most.
I share my stories with you, my struggles with you, my wins with you, so that I can share with you how the bridge between the mental/emotional and the physical are so strongly connected. I am the strongest I have ever been. Maybe I use to be able to lift more. Maybe at some point I didn't have as many anxieties or sad days. But together, feeding off one from the other, looking ahead and moving forward, I am physically and emotionally as strong as I have ever been. I love sharing this with others. I love getting to help others reach their full capacity. Their highest potential in life. Don't ever sell yourself short. My life is far from perfect, but I am so happy with how I am choosing to life it and with the life I have. I hope we all can say the same one day.
Results don't happen overnight. Results take days. weeks. months. and years. to build. to develop. to nurture. and to mold. Don't quit on yourself if you don't see the results when you thought you might. I promise. One day you will wake up and you will see the changes.
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